I’m afraid that my biggest contribution to the world is in overpopulation.
I’m afraid I’m not good enough for my boyfriend.
I’m afraid I don’t show my family that I love them as much as a should.
I’m afraid I won’t find a job.
I’m afraid that I will run out of money.
I’m afraid of winter in NYC.
I’m afraid of one day waking up fat.
I’m afraid that I am not good enough, for myself and for humanity.
This fear, this emotion, creeps through my skin like food coloring flows through water, starting slowly and then gradually taking over my body. I feel it in the tips of my fingers. I feel it in the souls of my feet. At times it feels paralyzing. Like my brain is on fire.
But, I don’t let it control my life. My being. My presence. I channel these fears into action. Texting with my mom, going out to pick up my boyfriend’s favorite foods, spending time with friends, running until I am out of breathe, watching my spending, and being patient in building a career that I am passionate about.
There are things you can control in life, and there are things you can’t. Focus on the things you can influence their outcomes and don’t let your fear take over your life.
We are all afraid of something, but our joy for life always triumphs. Go out there, choose your happiness, be free in making decisions, and live life moment by moment.